Would it be possible?

I feel so great right now

Isn't funny?
It is a fact that when we are not looking for something is when we find the things and yeah in a hopeless place

It is so rewarding to know that even though we live in an era where love and loyalty are very rare to find there still people who are fighting and trying to keep it alive.

Today I went to a place,I didn't know I would be finding a loyal person, someone which I can learn from and that is there to share its knowledge

I found someone that it can make me smile so fast and i am just so glad to know how wonderful life is

I know I am running things up in my head but what if would it be possible?

Imagine how amazing that would be that all of the sudden you finally found who you were not looking for but deep down you wanted to find

Right now I am letting the things go with the flow because this is so unexpected

I don't know what it's going to happen or what will be next but I feel great

And I want to continue feeling this way

What is it?

I am to formal you say sometimes

Or disrespectful other times

I’m here again, not knowing what I want but every morning I wake up just to check my phone and see if you sent that crazy message every morning and that instead of saying good morning you go and tell me stuffs that are out of place.

You tell me that I am hilarious sometimes or that I am special and I mean you change your mood so fast but what I know it’s that I like you just the way you are

I like to know that you are always there for me to make me smile and whether I like you or not I am there to make you smile as well.

It’s really cute when sometimes you go really inspirational with me telling me I am meant to strive for greatness and that I can do better things every day and to be honest I love that because I've learned it from you.

I don’t know what’s wrong I mean I don’t know if I am doing the things right because there has been people telling me that you might like me or perhaps I look to happy when I am with you but I don’t know

I just I like to be with you and talk to you and look at you and ….. I love you’re not the typical kind of person

And then sometimes you call me I am one of a kind but you are the one of a kind I might say

I might be wondering if I look weak when I am with you?

I don’t care but I like the fact that you accept me the way I am and that you appreciate me for what I am and you’re not there trying to change me

When we have those conversations that really touch topics like love, friendship, work environment. That is just something I wouldn’t change.

And then when you get mad when I don’t reply your messages back, I really love it.

I love everything from you even though I feel mad sometimes

What is it I wonder sometimes?

Is it love? Is it just some kind of affection?

I wish I could be more than what I am now because consider that I am not enough

But then you go again with your precious voice and I am smiling right now because I am thinking about you

Our little fights, that is such a crazy thing

And I wouldn't change anything

Now you tell me I have changed and that I don't make you smile anymore but indeed I have changed and despite the fact that I am different now it does not mean that I am not there anymore for you

I do know now that you love me even though you hide it but it's OK

It's all OK

And that is what it was, true love for two lost souls in a world that has nothing to offer but perfect illusions

First Day of The Year

It's new year and everyone is happy that new goals are coming up and that the year will bring better opportunities.

Perhaps because it will be healing

Or maybe because there is a new chance to try correcting some mistakes that we couldn't last year.

Whatever the reason is, life goes on and the new year give us new opportunities to do better, to try to accomplish those goals we haven't been able to achieve so far.

It is important to note that birthdays are coming up as well and we are growing.

Oh time time, precious time we would like to stop but we can't.

People that left, that probably will leave forever but hey

We are never alone, we were not born to be alone

There will always be a person design for you and if you didn't get to know it last year, maybe this is the year.

New year means having to take new decisions, new challenges, new risks.

New year is new year and today I am glad I'm still alive and I have my grandma with me

I am happy and I want everyone to be happy as well.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Inspirational

Inspirational

One day I decided to come here

I came to the place I never thought I was coming

It was something unexpected or maybe that I didn’t see coming

And you were there

I remember you saying or asking to me

How was my day going?

But it was something so peaceful

It made me feel good

Because I felt that connection with you

You made it look so relaxed

Very kind and nice

I felt nice when there was no rush

You trying to know more about me

And to be honest I still think the same

Since the very first time I met you

Or I got to know you

I knew you were a special person

Someone you can rely on

Here we are almost one year later

I know I can count on you

You know me even more than I do

And I like that because that simply means

I am important to you as well

When I do things for you

It concerns me that you always ask why?

I don’t know why you don’t get use to that

It is only a nice thing I like doing

But only for the people that means a lot to me

We’ve gone through some minor issues

Or inconveniences perhaps

Who knows?

I just know that I feel really happy

Because I’ve learned a lot of good things from you

Of course we all have differences

We are all different

But as I mention to you the other day

I am with you

I am with you because

My friendship is unconditional

I want you to know you can count on me

I’ve made some mistakes

But that does not change anything

Thank you for caring for my grandma

And even for me

I know deep inside that you

Are a wonderful person

And I wouldn’t change anything from you

Who would tell that someone like me

Would be doing this

Maybe you were not expecting this either

Or you didn’t believe me when I told you

I was doing it

But see

Here I am

Early in the morning

Inspired

Bringing those flashbacks

Remembering those moments

When I met you

When you looked so serious

But that seriousness was just

A first impression

Of course

You didn’t know me

However, day by day you started to become nicer

And, I just wanna thank you for everything

Believe it or not

I appreciate little details

I’m the kind of person

Who never expects to get anything back

Anyway

I just want you to know

That

I do care about you

I care about you family

Because you’re important for me

Ok?

You’re my inspiration and some

Sort of a role model

Remember

Even if we are not in the same place

I’ll always be your friend

And I’ll always count on you

THANK YOU!!!!

My Dear Everything

My dear everything

You have always been the light of my life

The person who has been there to support me

To let me know that love exists in different ways 

Every day you let me know how important I am for you

And so do I

When I imagine you aint gonna be with me forever, I cry

Not only because you won’t be with me

But because I will have nothing

You’re the most important thing in the world for me

My dear everything

You, the one that makes me smile

You, that love me

That will never let me down

Thank you for all your love

For all your support

For all those tears you’ve cried 

Thank you for taking care of me when I was unable to

Let me tell you that you are the most wonderful person in the world

You’re everything to me

My world is what you are

My life would be nothing without you

There are no words to explain how I feel

When I see you there

Waiting for me to kiss me and hug me

To cherish me as your little baby

And I never wanna lose you

Because I don’t want to miss you

I want to stay with me forever

I love you

My dear grandmother

My dear everything

To my grandma I love the most

So, I woke up today thinking about my life. It's been 23 years now since I just was born. I've been trying to live and forget many things that I regret now because I did them. However, regretting will not help at all. I cry sometimes and I wish I could go back but I can't. I can't change the things I did once. And it is easy to say I'm sorry but that does not help at all.

I remember that I once made my grandma to feel bad. That day I was going out with my friends and I told her not to go with me because I was feeling ashamed of her. She was just speechless when I said that to her. My heart got broken into little pieces. Since that moment I promised to myself not to make her feel bad again because it hurts to know that you are hurting the person that would do anything for you.

My grandma is the most wonderful person I've ever known. She has been willing to help me all this time. Giving me her support and showing me that love has no boundaries. I believe that love is unconditional, because love is precious, love is blind and sometimes it might be selfish.  She has been there for me forever and I can't imagine my life without her.  Basically, she raised me up and made the person I am. 

When I think about the moments that I made her cry I just would like to hit myself for being a fucking asshole that does not appreciate the effort and support she always have gave me starting since she took me out of the hospital to take care of me since I was born and that makes me feel bad as well because I fuck up sometimes and I have learned to love her.

Nowadays, I have changed my perspective about her love towards me and my love towards her. Our relation has become better since I realized that she meant everything to me. I was dreaming one of these days that she was dead. I woke up crying because I felt that dream so real that I couldn't imagine being without her. Since that moment I told myself to behave and to be there just for her.

My main point here is that we have to appreciate the fact that sometimes we are not good enough with the person that has given everything just to be there for you. We need to appreciate those little details they have with us it does not matter if it is a big or a small act of love. Love them and give them the best from you because you don't know if you will see them again another day.

Most likely today they are alive but what about tomorrow? We don't know

Love that person that have been there all this time for you.

Dreams

Dreams

What is your perception about dreams?

We all dream, boys and girls, elder and babies, we all dream.

Have you ever wonder why do we dream?

I have no fucking idea but what I know is that is because we are adventurous people so what do I mean?

Most of the time we are always saying that we were dreaming all night but no way, it doesn’t happen like that we dream just the last 50 seconds before we open our eyes

But we also have other types of dreams

Dream we want to make come true, sometimes we have big ideas in our mind and we want to become in something big, something we had always dreamed about, like being a singer Gosh!!! That was always my dream but it hasn’t been easy. I’ve tried so hard but I’m still stuck

I’m still here waiting for my dream to come true and let me tell you that I even wrote some songs but it didn’t work I was not so good enough to make it right.

I decided to start writing this blog because I wanted to express myself and I knew it would help me to feel better

I just want to tell you that we all have dreams

We dream big

Don’t be scare because you have nothing to lose

I believe that we think people is going to judge you but what about?

Let people talk about you

It doesn’t matter what they think

You do things right and they judge you, you do things wrong and they judge but what’s the point?

Be who you wanna be

Never stop dreaming because all those famous people started b having dreams too, and I even read a quote once that it said “if you can dream it, you can do it”

Remember that the sky is the limit or there might be no limits

I just don’t know

Just rely on you

Believe!!

Because dreams only die if the dreamer die!